Friday, September 27, 2013

Labour Story & The Pain Inside Out..

Dear Little Arman,

What kind of title is that? Ok forget it. Just read with a nice deep breath.
(Coz agak menyeremkannn..hahaha)

Oh, finally mommy da selamat gave birth to you love!
Papa & I have decided to call you Arman. (You like it? hopefully yea..)
Papa already register your surat beranak pun whether you liked it or not! Pasport coming soon!
Coz you're only 1 month old.
I wonder how to take your pasport photo. coz you're very small..hihi.

Ok, I wanna tell you & people who read this blog the story (sila baca title di atas..)
Here it goes..
Pada suatu hari..sang kancil pun..eh mende...
Ok serius..
Pada suatu pagi yang hening, I was in d office. tgh kerja..
I think on that day I already 38 weeks.
Suddenly, i feel something macam terkencing (opps sorry) dalam seluar.
I rasa sgt tergezuttttt...Tapi still control macho..I mean cun..hihi.
I told my colleagues Kak Era & Kak Nana about the terkencing part., (sayangnyaaa Nora wasn't there to be with me while my waterbag broke..hahaha! Ok.. nora is one of my good colleague.)
And they said 'air ketuban ko pecah la tu..'
Dan semakin banyak,banyak dan banyak..So semua orang pun excited utk membantu kita ni ha!
hihi..Happening sungguh kau bikin office aku waktu tu Arman oi!
Dan dgn kuasa Allah, pagi tu Papa send me to office. I didn't drive to office like usual..
Ok, So kak nana & kak era took me straight to the hospital. Thank you darlss..
Setibanya di hospital, takyah la nak bilang pasal register semua kan...cut short plsss..
Ok, setelah doktor cek evrything, doctor kata jalan masih buka 1cm only..oo really..?
Patut la i tak sakit terus..
Sangat tak sakit..hahahah. But I still kena admitted coz waterbag da pecah, boleh men'danger'kan baby..
1st time kena admitted hosptal u ols. Tapi not so bad..
Hari pertama di hospital dah kena induced..But still tak sakit.. I didn't feel the contraction.
Hari Kedua..Tak kena induced pun..And then masih tak rasa sakit nak bersalin..
I pun berserah je la..Papa always came to visit me.. brought good food from outside..hahhaa
Thank you sayang..
Hari ketiga, jam 4 pagi da rasa sakit every 20 minutes.. Oh yeah to all ladies, banyakkan baca surah maryam, it helps a lot..
And then rasa sakit tu every 5 mins pulak... And I vomit 2 times seh...
Bila dah tak tahan and cannot handle anymore, I ask doctor, tolong check how many cm dilated coz I want to give birth now.. hehe..
Doc check and already 4cm dilated so bole masuk labour room..
Yahoo...best2.. dalam hati seram juga...
Dalam labour room dia masukkan ubat yg mempercepatkan bukaan supaya baby cepat keluar..
My husband was there inside the room..siap borak2 wif the nurses..(I told you Arman, he's so friendly! hahahha).
And then the nurse cek and said to me, cuba try push..(dalam hati I, even the doc takde pun ok ke ni nak push?) And i followed nurse instruction..
First time push...
Second time pushhhhh...
And Arman pun came out...Alhamdulilah..
Semuanya dalam sekelip mata.. Rasa sakit tak seperti yg I imagined.
Alhamdulilah maybe ini bahagian mama.. Thats y I said Arman very good boy..
Thank you Allah... Thank you Arman.. & Thank you evryone yg mendoakan..
Memang sgt mudah urusan bersalin ni..Alhamdulilah..

Ok la..till next time..Arman da start bunyi2..
-ayu-


Saturday, September 14, 2013

My words..

I know i hurt him so much..
I know he's crying inside..
I know i shouldnt blame him for everything that happened..
But.. 
I'm only human..

-ayu-